fairy dust and tears.

Readers is it impossible to love chocolate more than people? because this lint tastes beyond amazing. and considering turning my future boyfriend into a lint ball.  im a genuis

Feel like a whale, look like a whale, must be a whale.

I feel like a tidal wave is jamming in my tear ducks. over powered feelings.
 im not alone. pinch me and bleed.

chocolates and heartbreaks

so ive come to realization that things between dylan and i are coming to a end. surprisingly it doesn't bother me one bit, okay well a little bit .

Liam and i are still catching up, its amazing how much happens in someones life over the space of a year. and now with my sister back in cape town things are pretty busy.

i think i just need an escape for cape town for a week, like get away, to Durban or Hawaii.

have to work, will finish this later.

dusty reality

most boring day.

feel like I've been sitting still for years and time is taking centuries.

dads talking up some 20 year old hottie and I'm  missing Cállum to much.

.. dust mites in my hair.. gosh, Dylan says I have to explain it. my opinion its completely obvious.

the most interesting thing for my brain to conjure and wrap itself up with is Dylans new nickname for me. "ding bat '
the joys of being tuned

flux. on the next topic. why are guys so sexual, girls are nothing like that and as far as I'm concerned
guys should be able to keep their business in their pants until they've met the woman they'll marry. ALL AGREE??. no girl wants to be with  guy who has been with so many girls that not even A dictionary can keep up with. seriously! not attractive, and I'm pretty sure guys feel the same with girls, I know I would if I was a dude.
guys are such bunny rabbits,  constantly breeding!!

why are girls so caught up on being skinny? if a guy cares about you he wont care about cellulite, fat, lumps, bumps or curves. BOYS! if a girl is forcing herself on you, showing her body off to get your attention, going after more guy than or even getting sexual after your first conversation. she is NOT real. they real ones are the ones who are worth going for, the ones that have fat and don't care,the ones who smile even when they cry. they're real, they don't look for attention when they don't get it. if you want a good, long, happy relationship. get a real girl.
and boys, you need to realize that NO girl likes it when you ask her for pictures so just don't bother. biggest turn off.

friendtationship

so.. kind of ironic.

totes started catching up with this guy I used to have the hugest crush on in grade 8..

it was in of those crushes where you know you'll never get the oak but you keep on pushing and trying and end up with a broken heart when you finally give up.

well he and I were talking.. turns out he also had a huge crush on me .. and thought the same things.. how ironic is this situation. kind of freaky right.

he and I could have still together right now if we had of said something. how freaky is this, in complete shock.
he still has feelings for me. like a wave came crashing over my head.

am I being unfaithful to the guy I'm with now by even thinking about this or talking to Liam about it ??

I mean.. I wont EVER leave Dylan.. I love him, but its just not everything that's needed..

advice needed people. I like Dylan, I'm staying with him. he's the one.. but what if ..
its easier to think what if, easier to not care.

flirtationship!

blackberry for the win!

blackberry for the win? more like the loose. I've had more than four blackberry's this year!

OVER RATED. WHY DO I HAVE SUCH BAD BLACKBERRY LUCK!??
 i'm sure its not only me.
 so i got a new one yesterday and its already wonkers!
where is the app world on this piece of poo poo. gosh

going to throw it into shark infested waters after dipping it in fish blood. the thought makes me sick but its what i'm willing to do to keep my sanity.

time for a upgrade to a Samsung.. galaxy maybe? aah i LOVE you Santa!

money

ahh, another day in the hell hole! gosh. work is so overrated.

why cant money just grow on trees?
if you think about it.. having money grow on trees would save us .. more people would want to keep that 200 year old oak that covers up their front lawn.
more people would buy that R150 little shrub.

money making and world saving.

the way i see it.. god should turn leaves into money!

save us the day and that way i could buy those cute jimmy chose ill never be able to afford.

irony

how ironic is this

Im considered a bad influence on my dad!
with me constantly saying "are you djuss' .. well then old man had caught on, i never thought id be considered a bad influence towards my dad

how many teenagers can say that!

slapped into reality

gosh.. had a real deep conversation with my best friend.. future plans? before i know it ill be shipped off to collage..

reality check! i cant go on pretending that my dad will pay for me in life, summer job time!

time?

why does this year feel like it lasted a day? 

can not believe Christmas is in just 6 days! 

and here i am.. haven't started Christmas shopping, or even got a tree. wonderful. 

just another Christmas to look forward to. 

let the planning begim.