on repeat

i once carried a feeling of bliss and ecstasy. It left me feeling warm and secure, until the cold began to creep in.

cracks, small and frail began to grow, leaving  frosted implantation's in my core. 

so i walked, detached and isolated, the holes were slowly permeated with a summer breeze. until once again i carried a feeling of serene bliss, filled with ecstasy, my cracks shrunk.  for a while, almost believably, i was almost elated. 

until realization swept in on me and i was  a fly on the wall of my past, playing the beats to my future and no longer were there cracks but gorges. 

repitition

it started with a fake smile that was taken a bit too seriously, followed by hollow emotionless laughter that was stuck on repeat.

a circle began to form, images of taunting beauty would come into view and so it would again begin. crackling sobs disguised by hollow shrill squeals.
glistening drops of regret and remorse would roll, turning to glistening pools, recreating a beautiful reflective demon.

digging into nothing but hopelessness she patched the pools with a glimmering smile and a piercing giggle.

Day dream

Estatically she skips forward through his essence
Nervously she takes his hand believing his feelings to be true.

Silently she closes her eyes, bringing back films,
Recapturing his portrait in her minds eye.

Until once again, realization kicks in and her cheeks are draped in sweet sorrow filled nectar.

The purity of her delusional hallucinations start to fade and she no longer skips but runs from his essence, believing and seeing the monster of his core to be true.